Pregnancy: 7 weeks

Cravings: Potatoes, gluten free bread, cereal. Power ade.

Aversions: Almost everything.  Salsa and curry being the two biggest aversions.

Symptoms:Frequent urination, morning sickness, drinking a lot of water, out of breath, pregnancy brain, a little bloated (but the kiwi is helping a lot), tender breasts, fatigue.

This past week was the hardest of my pregnancy so far.  Morning sickness has definitely kicked in and left me feeling queasy fairly often.  I try to keep eating every couple of hours, but I don’t necessarily feel like eating anything in particular.  The “cravings” listed above are what I have resorted to eating because the sound of them don’t make me want to gag like everything else.  The powerade has been a nice change from water, but I’m not sure that it’s as hydrating as water.  So, I’ve tried to limit my intake since it has heaps of sodium.

Over the weekend, we went to stay with the in-laws because it was convenient for the schedule we had, and we like spending time with them.  Well, did that ever make me realise that I enjoy being at home.  Feeling sick makes me want to be at home, not someone else’s house.  This made me rethink my birth plan (which is all in my head at this point).  We live 40 minutes from the birth centre, and I don’t want to be in labour for 40 minutes in the car.  So, originally, we were thinking that when I start labour (and if I’m not progressing quickly) then we’d go to the in-laws house because it’s closer.  Well, after this weekend, I just want to be home until I have to go into the birth centre.  With my husband’s new job, we have been thinking about moving into town anyway, and I think this thought has cemented the decision.  We will probably be moving into town to be closer to his work and, as a bonus, closer to the birthing centre.

One good thing is, the miscarriage dreams have ceased, but I’ve started having sexy dreams.  They say this is a symptom, too, so I thought I’d mention it.  Luckily, the dreams have been about my husband, which is the only way I would want it.  Much better dreaming about him than miscarriage, I must say.  🙂

I still experience quite a bit of cramping.  Some of this is connected to my lower back pain, but a lot of it is just everything moving and stretching.  Apparently my uterus is now twice as big as it was before conception, so a little cramping makes sense.

Okay, I’ll leave it there for now.  I am going to try to post a bit more often instead of just one long post a week.  Hope you all have a great week!

Pregnancy: 7 weeks

Cravings: Potatoes, gluten free bread, cereal. Power ade.

Aversions: Almost everything.  Salsa and curry being the two biggest aversions.

Symptoms:Frequent urination, morning sickness, drinking a lot of water, out of breath, pregnancy brain, a little bloated (but the kiwi is helping a lot), tender breasts, fatigue.

This past week was the hardest of my pregnancy so far.  Morning sickness has definitely kicked in and left me feeling queasy fairly often.  I try to keep eating every couple of hours, but I don’t necessarily feel like eating anything in particular.  The “cravings” listed above are what I have resorted to eating because the sound of them don’t make me want to gag like everything else.  The powerade has been a nice change from water, but I’m not sure that it’s as hydrating as water.  So, I’ve tried to limit my intake since it has heaps of sodium.

Over the weekend, we went to stay with the in-laws because it was convenient for the schedule we had, and we like spending time with them.  Well, did that ever make me realise that I enjoy being at home.  Feeling sick makes me want to be at home, not someone else’s house.  This made me rethink my birth plan (which is all in my head at this point).  We live 40 minutes from the birth centre, and I don’t want to be in labour for 40 minutes in the car.  So, originally, we were thinking that when I start labour (and if I’m not progressing quickly) then we’d go to the in-laws house because it’s closer.  Well, after this weekend, I just want to be home until I have to go into the birth centre.  With my husband’s new job, we have been thinking about moving into town anyway, and I think this thought has cemented the decision.  We will probably be moving into town to be closer to his work and, as a bonus, closer to the birthing centre.

One good thing is, the miscarriage dreams have ceased, but I’ve started having sexy dreams.  They say this is a symptom, too, so I thought I’d mention it.  Luckily, the dreams have been about my husband, which is the only way I would want it.  Much better dreaming about him than miscarriage, I must say.  🙂

I still experience quite a bit of cramping.  Some of this is connected to my lower back pain, but a lot of it is just everything moving and stretching.  Apparently my uterus is now twice as big as it was before conception, so a little cramping makes sense.

Okay, I’ll leave it there for now.  I am going to try to post a bit more often instead of just one long post a week.  Hope you all have a great week!

Pregnancy 6 weeks

Cravings: Had a few for milkshakes at the beginning of the week, but nothing really after those few days.  I do have to eat every 2 hours, though, or I don’t feel well.

Aversions: Olives.

Symptoms: Pregnancy brain (which I forgot to mention last week-ha), lower back aches, bloat, constipation, tender breasts, a bit more fatigue, frequent urination (getting used to this one more and more), incredibly emotional.

I am surprised that I’m feeling so good.  Part of me still second guesses whether I’m pregnant or not, but I’ve kept the tests and take a peek at them when I need reassurance.  Bloat and constipation have been terrible in the last week, but I remembered an article I read that stated eating 2 kiwis per day keeps everything regular.  So, I’ve started eating one every 24 hours, and it’s working beautifully.  

I can’t seem to do anything about pregnancy brain, and it sure is strong.  I feel a little like I’m losing my mind, but there’s nothing I can really do about it.  I’m forgetting items before I leave, names, dates, and just now remembered that I have to leave in 15 minutes for a chiropractors appointment (good thing I remembered soon enough).  

As far as lower back pain goes, it’s stronger on some days than others.  It seems like when I wear shoes, my back pain gets worse.  When I’m at home in my sock feet, my back pain isn’t too bad.  Either way, I’m going to the kinesiologist/chiropractor that my midwife recommended today, and I’m sure that will help immensely.

Other than that, my emotions have gone ape crap.  Wow, take PMS and times it by 1000 and you have pregnancy.  Hubby and I have had to work extra hard working through our arguments lately because I’m hurt but I’m also extremely crabby so we both end up hurt and feeling the other one was the crabby one.  We seem to be getting the hang of things, though, so the past few days have been much better.  I seriously cry or get angry at the drop of a hat, though.  And I don’t mean that I get a little upset.  I get REALLY upset…kind of embarrassing.

An exciting thing happened on Saturday: We got to tour the birth centre!  It’s beautiful.  They have made it homey and comfortable, and the tubs are huge and deep and I can’t wait to give birth in one of them (I already have a favourite room picked out).  It’s connected to the hospital, which is lovely in case anything goes wrong (I’m not anticipating that, but insurance of safety is always good).  And the more I interact with my midwife, the better.  I did find out that since we didn’t need the dating ultrasound and since we don’t want the testing for downs syndrome done, my first ultrasound won’t be until 18 weeks!  That seems like forever away!  The good thing, however, is that we will most likely be able to find out the gender then and the baby will look like a baby and not just a dot.  I will get to hear the heartbeat at my next midwife appointment, which is only 3 weeks from Friday!  Can’t wait.

I don’t know if this has happened to any of you other pregnant ladies, but I have had a few dreams that I go the bathroom and there’s spotting or blood.  I think my mind is just releasing my fear of miscarriage through these dreams, but I don’t like having them.  I always wake up and then want to immediately check and make sure everything’s okay.  I remember having a lot of worst case scenario dreams whenever my wedding was coming up, too, and nothing in my dreams came true.  Just a lot of dreams about showing up hours late or my dress having kool aid down the front or other terrible scenarios like that.  I really think these miscarriage dreams are the same thing.  After all, part of the reason we decided to tell everyone so early is so that they could all be praying fervently that the baby will stay safe and healthy and that I will, too.  There are a lot of people praying for our little one, and I believe I’m going to have a safe and healthy pregnancy.  

Yesterday at church, we read a Scripture that eased my mind a bit: “Cast all your anxieties upon Him, because He cares for you.” –1 Peter 5:7

I hope you don’t mind this long post!  I will try to post more often with shorter content, but I sure do enjoy releasing all my thoughts into this blog.  It’s fun to keep track of my journey and connect with you ladies through it.  I hope you have a great week!

Pregnancy: Week 5

Cravings: Chicken, string cheese, and milk shakes

Aversions: Not much.  My husband was eating fried seafood the other day and the smell almost made me gag, though.  

Symptoms: Cramping, some fatigue, FREQUENT URINATION (seriously), hungry every two hours, smell sensitivity, lower back ache, and tender breasts

This week has been great.  I’ll start at last weekend, even though I was in the tail end of week 4 then.  Because Hub and I have been married 4 years and our anniversary was in the middle of the work week, we decided to go out of town for a mini vacation on the weekend.  We went to the coast and enjoyed the sunshine.  I found it much more difficult to be a keen traveler like I usually am, though.  I couldn’t walk around as long because of some round ligament/back pain, and I had to pee all the time.  Plus, when I’m hungry, I’m hungry NOW.  Haha, all in all a great weekend, though, and thrilled to have symptoms so early.

We were going to wait a few weeks to tell anyone, and I was thoroughly enjoying having this a secret between Hub and me.  It was sweet but surely didn’t last long.  Sunday, we met with the in-laws for lunch and had decided, since it was Mother’s Day, that we would tell them (also because of how differently I was acting).  So, we found a card that said “for the Mum to be” and wrote “Grand” in front of Mum.  Oh, how excited MIL was!  FIL was, too, but he is so reserved (a trait of the men of my husband’s family that I’m still not quite used to).  I was happy with his reaction, though, because when he realised it his face lit up completely.  I won’t ever forget that.

So, this week has been full of trying to tell people so that they would hear it from us and not a different source.  We only have a few more people to tell before we put it on facebook, I think.

Oh, yeah, and I had my first midwife appointment!  I feel really good about the office I chose and am looking forward to working with them.  The only thing I’m sad about is that my next appointment isn’t until 9 weeks–still 4 weeks away from now!!!  I could’ve gone for an ultrasound, but since my charting is so spot on, we calculated my due date right then and called it a day.  She ordered some bloodwork, and we’re going to tour the birthing centre on Saturday (can’t wait!).  

I keep having to remind myself that this a marathon and not a sprint.  I want to enjoy each and every day and not be held up by the fear of miscarriage or something going wrong.  I have to say, though, I can’t wait to find out the gender.

Oh yes, and I’m already having to wear maternity clothes.  Not because I’m bigger, but because it is incredibly uncomfortable (already) for me to be wearing my jeans.  Dresses, skirts, and maternity jeans it is!

I’m praying for each and every one of you that I know who are still TTC and hoping to hear news of your BFPs soon.  

His promises are real

Oh girls, I am out of the loop and have kept you out of the loop for a week.  So sorry about that!

Some of you have already figured out what I’m about to tell you by peeking at my chart.  I got my BFP!  I am still in shock, because I honestly didn’t think it would happen SO quickly.  Wow.

I caved and took a test at 10dpo…also hubby’s and my 4 year anniversary.  I was awake hours before him, so I had to wait for him to wake up to tell him.  So difficult!  I kept wanting to wake him up, but he’s not a morning person.  I didn’t want to have him be cranky when I told him.  Anyway, he finally got up and I gave him a few short minutes to wake up.  We started looking at cars online and while looking, I said “I think we’re going to need to open another savings account.” (Hubby is REALLY into savings).  So, of course he asked “why” and I pulled out the positive test!  Woohoo!

I went to the midwife at the end of the week, which helped with my concerns and just knowing that I have someone to call if I need any questions answered or reassurance.  I have to wait until 9 weeks for my next appointment, though!  Seems like ages away, but it will probably go quickly.

For you girls still trying and battling with infertility…cling to the promises of God, girls.  He makes the infertile fertile.  I have PCOS, the number one cause of infertility, yet here we are.  Pray to Him…tell Him what you want…and read His Word…and cling to what He tells you in it about infertility.  He cares, dear one.

Anyway, just wanted to update you!  I will begin my belated 5 week post tomorrow.  Can’t wait!

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Sorry so fuzzy! Apparently my phone camera doesn’t focus very well. 10 dpo.

Symptoms!

I am happy to report that I had a busy weekend.  Saturday wasn’t too busy, so I started to go a little crazy with the googling symptoms, etc, but then I went outside to hang up my clothes and realized how beautiful the weather turned out.  So, I walked to the store and bought a few things, came home and had a make shift picnic out in my yard whilst reading.  Perfect.

Sunday, I had church and then hubby and I went on one of my favorite kinds of dates: Driving and dreaming.  We had a drive out to a place I’d never been (hubby had and wanted to show me) and talked about what it would be like to move there.  And I think we’re seriously considering moving to this town we looked at this time.  My hubby was just offered a job that he’s going to accept today, and he needs to be more central to a few towns that he’ll be working with families in.  Exciting.

Yesterday, we went for a hike.  I’m not real sure if I should have gone on a hike during 2ww, but I tried to not obsess over that and went anyway.  I think it was okay…I’m praying it was.  The only thing I’m concerned about is that I said I didn’t want to do the hard trail, and the girl who organized it wanted to do that trail (of course).  So, I said fine I’ll give it a go…and now I’m worried that I shouldn’t have done that.  What else could I do, though?

Ah, well.  This brings me to symptoms, which get a little stronger each day (exciting)!  Last week, I felt a lot of twinges and flutters, which has continued.  My uterus feels fuller than usual.  My lower back has been hurting.  And, in the last two days, my breasts have become increasingly more tender.  I have also been tired, but I’m not sure if that’s just the business of life over this weekend or an actual symptom.  It’s looking like my chart is going to triphasic, too, which is awesome.  Oh yeah, and I’ve had heaps of cf, which is extremely unusual for me after O.  Also, frequently visiting the toilet because I have to pee so much.  In fact, each night for the last 5 nights or so, I’ve had to get up and pee in the middle of the night–also very unusual for me.

Somehow, I’ve held off testing just because I know in my head that the longer I wait, the more definite the results (and I’d love to see a darker line rather than a squinter).  So, I’m 9 dpo and going to try and wait until Thursday (11 dpo) but might best tomorrow.  I have 10 internet tests, so plenty of “ammo,” but I am going to try to wait.  The only thing is, tomorrow is hub’s and my 4 year anniversary.  What a great day to find out.  On the other hand, would I be too disappointed if it was a bfn?  Either way, I’ll let you know what happens.

My Ovulation Chart
Have a nice day!

Activities to keep me busy and more

I have a lot to update on, even though it’s only been two days.  Temp is still up and seems to be climbing, and I do have twinges more than usual down in the ovarian region.  I am trying to decide exactly how early to test.  My luteal phase is usually 14 days, but I don’t know if I can wait another week and a half to test.  Maybe another week?  Maybe 12 dpo would be a compromise with my crazy self and logical self.

I woke up yesterday feeling INCREDIBLY homesick and missing specific friends.  For the first time in awhile, I felt like I didn’t want to be here in Australia.  A few minutes later, I signed onto facebook and saw a message from my little brother.

My little brother is a partier.  He lives in a college town and certainly lives a college lifestyle.  He is not settled by any means.  He has been dating a girl on and off for awhile, but they definitely have one of those on-and-off relationships…well, his message told me that I’m going to be an aunt sometime around dec/jan.  Wow.  I was shocked and, to be honest, a little pissed.  Let me just have my four year old brat moment here…I have been married 4 years and lived a stable life, and we have JUST started ttc…and somehow the timing of my little brother getting his girlfriend pregnant happens to be around the time when I hope to be getting pregnant.  WHAT?!  Augh.  

So, I went on a walk, which reminded me why I love Australia, and then I didn’t feel the need to move back to the States anymore.  And, as I prayed on my walk, even though I still feel mad and upset about the situation, God helped me to see that maybe this is a way that my brother and I can finally connect…maybe this is a way that he will finally grow up…and then I started praying–a LOT–for his future child.  I started praying that the little bean will grow up in the Lord regardless of his parents…and that maybe, just maybe, this would bring his parents to the Lord.

Then, I got home and hubby told me I got a phone call from one of the very friends I was missing that morning.  Perfect timing.  I felt better the rest of the day.

Wow, this post has ended up going in a different direction than what I thought it would.  Things that I’ve been doing to keep myself busy:

  • breaking my day up by going to the grocery store every day instead of all at once.  I don’t teach until the afternoons, so the mornings are the most challenging for me.  This helps to give me something I need to get done and gives me a chance to get out of the house and away from the internet.
  • Reading a new book.  I’m currently reading Forgiven by Karen Kingsbury, and I’m enjoying the series.  I had to take a break after the first part of this family series, because there is a lot of drama.  Now, though, I need someone else’s drama to keep me from creating my own.  🙂
  • Lots and lots and LOTS of Netflix.  My favorites: the Office (currently on season 6), Miss Conception (a cute movie about a woman about to go into early menopause that needs to conceive quickly.  A lot of language and some cheese, but overall a cute feel-good movie), and White Collar.
  • Journaling and doing my devotions.  This keeps my mind out of crazy land.

I’ll keep y’all updated on any changes.  Also, CONGRATULATIONS to those of you who have received your bfps lately!  There have been quite a few, and I’m so VERY excited for you!!!

Weepy

Day 2 of tww.  Today was better in some ways from yesterday (gosh, am I really going to feel like this EVERY day?  How do you ladies do this every month?).  Today went by a lot faster, but I was incredibly emotional.  I felt disconnected from my husband for no reason.  Then, I went to the grocery store and decided since I was in a funk, I would buy myself something.  I headed to the candle section, because it seemed like a day where I needed my house to smell homey.  So, I bought Glade’s apples and cinnamon scented candle.  When I got home, I was opening it up and realized that the scent reminds me of when my husband and I first were married.  We were poor, like many newlyweds, and couldn’t afford much more than Glade.  The scent reminds me of autumn and new beginnings and love.  The perfect day to have bought this scent.

So, I started weeping.  I have been weepy all day, and little things like that have made me more weepy. Ah, fun.

The good news is, once I started teaching my lessons, my funk seemed to (mostly) go away.  Later, one of my friends came over and we had some girl time.  It was really nice.  I needed that.  

After tomorrow, I will be a little busier…hopefully busy enough until testing date to not drive myself crazy.  I am going to try to wait until 14 dpo, but we’ll see how we go.  

I want to share this video with you in honor of my first (and hopefully only) 2ww.  This girl knew she was pregnant very early on, and I”m trying not to think I’m having these flutterings that she also had.  I actually watched this video months ago but remembered it yesterday when I had some of the same feelings “down there” that she had before finding out she was pregnant.  Judging by my somber mood today, though, I’m certainly not getting my hopes up.

 

P.S. Thank you to all my followers!  I’m excited for you to read my blog and look forward to reading yours, too.