Another update

You know what’s annoying?  Searching for a prenatal vitamin that’s gluten free and soy free AND has all the nutrients needed for a healthy conception and pregnancy.  Just thought I’d throw that out there.

My chart still hasn’t changed any.  Now I’m 8 DPO, my temps are still around the coverline, and I’m still spotting.  I’m pretty sure this isn’t implantation, so I’m not sure what’s going on, exactly.  If I were to guess, I would say that my body isn’t used to exercise yet.  I mean, I went from nothing to walking 30-45 minutes every day.  And, while that’s helping my estrogen levels and did make me ovulate sooner, my progesterone, the hormone that actually was in balance before, seems to be lacking.  Only another week and I’ll at least know if it’s going to even out or not.

A ttc blog.

Okay, I know it’s been awhile.  I tried to write a post the other day, wrote the whole thing out, and then it wouldn’t recognise the text for me to publish it.  So frustrating!

Anyway, a few things have happened lately that I feel a desire to share with you.  Last week, I established a routine of reading my Bible and devotional books/praying almost immediately after waking up and then getting dressed.  Well, as I began my week, I received news from several of my friends about tragic things going on in their families.  So, after I showered and dressed, I would clean the kitchen and pray as I cleaned.  Throughout the week, I felt a prompting to fast and pray on Friday.  I researched fasting a little bit and continued to feel the Spirit leading me to do this.

Fasting wasn’t as difficult as I thought.  The good news the day I started fasting is that fertility friend was showing that I ovulated on CD 20–one of the earliest ovulation days for me!  I think this diet and exercise thing is working.  Throughout the day of fasting and praying, God showed me a lot of things I didn’t expect, particularly in how I interact with my husband.  My affection needs some work, and I knew that night would be a perfect opportunity to practice my realisation.

Now we get to the ttc part of the rant.

I think I mentioned that we aren’t quite at the ttc stage yet.  We are waiting until I take a trip overseas in March, because I don’t want to have morning sickness on the plane and/or chance a miscarriage (although the chances are slim, if it did happen, I would always wonder if that had something to do with it).  So, we only do it with out contraception when we know (thanks to Taking Charge of Your Fertility) that it’s safe.  Well, on Friday, I was 3 dpo, the first day when it’s okay if you want to avoid pregnancy.  Saturday, my temperature plummeted and has stayed low ever since.  So, I’m confused.  Fertility friend still says I’ve ovulated, but usually, my temperatures have no problems after ovulation.  They stay high.

Well now, I’m 6 DPO, spotting, and wondering what is going on.  Could I be…?  Am I…?  No, surely not.

Only time will tell.  What do you think, ladies?

 

A ramble

Yesterday, I finally took the plunge and bought a smart phone.  I love it.  I’m looking forward to sharing more photos and aspects of my life through it.

I’ve had a few moments lately…moments of jealousy, admittedly.  My husband and I wanted to buy a house a few months ago, but the only place in the town we live that was in our price range was going to need extensive renovations that we wouldn’t be able to afford.  So, we had to put buying on the back burner and continue renting.  Well, TWO (not one, but TWO) of my friends just told me in the last week that they’re buying a house.  And I just think…HOW ARE THEY DOING IT?  It’s so expensive in Australia.  They make it impossible unless you both work full time…

Oh, so that’s the missing piece, I think to myself.  They’re all working so much that they can afford it.  Maybe my part time working life isn’t so bad after all.  I mean, isn’t it more important to see my husband on a regular basis and grow closer to him than it is to own the house we’re living in?  So, we’ll be patient.

On another note, I have been working very hard this past week with my diet and exercise.  I have exercised every single day and diligently counted my calories.  The thing I find confusing about sparkpeople is that if you’re exercising more, it doesn’t adjust your caloric intake.  I tried to research more about how much to increase calories, but the only thing useful that I found was a caloric estimator.  That said I should be eating between 1400 and 1900 calories a day.  1900 seems a bit high for me, but if I keep exercising like I am, I think 1400 leaves me hungry and cranky (which I don’t think is good).  So, I’m going to try to leave it at 1600 and see what happens.  I think it will sometimes be a give and take.

I’ve noticed a difference in my hormones already since beginning an exercise routine, so I’m hoping this is the last piece missing from my puzzle.

Okay, at this stage, I’m just rambling.  I have a lot to do today to get ready for church (we have church in our home) and starting lessons tomorrow (hooray!) so I’m going to go.  Have a great day!

Story time: Leah

I am so enjoying reading some of your blogs and getting to know you through comments.  Thanks to my new followers, also!  

Today I woke up feeling a little gloomy for no apparent reason (it just happens sometimes).  I stayed in bed reading for a little bit and then got up and made breakfast.  As I sat down to eat, I prayed about my business.

Did I mention I teach piano?  This is my second year teaching.  All of my students from last year have rebooked for this school year, and I am hoping to double the amount of students this year.  

Anyway, back to my thought.  I prayed that God would bring me some new students in the next few weeks and bless my efforts.  A few minutes later, my phone rang, and I talked to a lovely lady that may potentially call back for lessons.  It wasn’t a booking, but it might turn into one.

Also, I read this post on passionate homemaking, and it made me realise that sometimes I wake up and sulk.  Maybe the thing for me to do is get up, read my Bible, get dressed, and be ready for the day.  So, I did.

Can I tell you how interesting I find the Old Testament?  I think it’s fascinating.  Today I read in Genesis 29, and verse 31 caught my eye:

“When the LORD saw that Leah was hated, he opened her womb, but Rachel was barren.  And Leah conceived and bore a son, and she called his name Reuben, for she said, ‘Because the LORD has looked upon my affliction; for now my husband will love me.’  She conceived again and bore a son, and said, ‘Because the LORD has heard that I am hated, he has given me this son also.’  And she called his name Simeon.  Again she conceived and bore a son, and said, ‘Now this time my husband will be attached to me, because I have borne him three sons.’  Therefore his name was called Levi. “

Let me back up and explain the history of this passage.  Jacob, Leah’s wife, married her only because her father tricked him into it.  He wanted to marry Rachel, the love of his life.  When the wedding night came, his father deceived Jacob by giving him Leah.  Of course, when Jacob found out, he confronted Laban (the father) and let him know that the arrangement would not work for him.  Thus, Jacob ended up marrying both Leah and Rachel and, of course, he loved Rachel and didn’t care much for Leah.  So, this woman is desperate for the love of her husband.  She tries to please him and be a great wife, but he simply cares for Rachel more.  With each child, she thinks he will finally love her.  I love the end of this passage.

“And she conceived again and bore a son, and said, ‘This time I will praise the LORD.’  Therefore, she called his name Judah.  Then she ceased bearing.”

Judah means “praise.”  I love the conclusion that Leah finally comes to.  When all is said and done, our purpose on this earth is not to please our husbands, not to gain their love, not even to be a good wife.  Our purpose on this earth is to praise the Lord.  Leah finally got it.  I hope to grasp this truth long before all the children I desire are born.  

Judah ended up being the great great, etc. grandfather of King David and then of Jesus Himself.  When we stop and surrender our dreams and desires and praise the Lord, beautiful things happen.  It changes history, and maybe even eternity.Image

 

 

 

 

 

 

Goals: Weight loss

This time last year, I felt a prompting from the Lord to start praying for my future children and that He would prepare my husband and me for parenthood.  I have desired for children since I got married, but knew it wasn’t the right time yet and waited for the gentle leading of my husband to help determine when.  I felt it in my gut last year, though…soon.  Soon, to me, meant in the next year and a half…and here we are planning to start trying to conceive (which may have started sooner if not for a trip overseas–we didn’t want to take any chances with the plane ride).  Anyway, to prepare my heart and keep my mind occupied, I began reading books and online articles.  So far, I’ve read more articles than anything, but lately, since the time quickly approaches, I’ve been reading a few books on ttc.

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My current read

At the moment, I’m reading “What to Expect Before You’re Expecting.”  Across the board, people have many different opinions of the “What to Expect” books.  I have seen mostly negative feedback, but a few people spoke positively.  I like to read things and find out for myself, so I took the plunge and bought the kindle edition (instant gratification).  Although a lot of the information that I’ve read so far are things I already knew, I am finding it informative.  The tidbit that hit me the hardest is the fact that fat cells produce estrogen, so if we have excess fat cells, it can affect our fertility!  I had no idea about this.  I knew, of course, that losing weight can help fertility, but I didn’t realise the direct connection between the hormone aspect of things.

In my journey with PCOS, I have had to cut back on a lot of things.  I found out that one of the causes of my symptoms came directly from gluten and have eaten gluten free ever since.  Then I later found out that soy was having some intense effects, particularly causing severe cramping, nausea, and long cycles.  So, I eat gluten and soy free.  I have noticed, however, that my ovulation day still doesn’t come until CD 20-25 and is never consistent.  There isn’t a whole lot more that I could cut back on with my diet, and I have been trying to think of the missing link.  I think, thanks to this book, that I have found it.  I still carry weight around my middle, a symptom of PCOS, and I have been dreading the hard work involved in losing this weight.  Now that I know the direct connection, however, I am ready to try.  So, my friends, in order to be in a healthy BMI range, I have to lose 13 lbs or more.  My goal is to lose those 13 lbs. by March and go from there.  At this point in my life, I will be so happy to be active and in a healthy weight range.  I’m not so concerned about whether I look a certain way, although I know I will feel more confident.  I’m just very excited to be working toward this goal so that I can have a healthy pregnancy.

I will be tracking my weight loss, nutrition, and fitness on Sparkpeople.  Visit my sparkpage to join in the challenge and set your own goals.  I would love to have some friends to do this with!

the Power of a Praying husband

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Me and my husband on our first anniversary

“And Isaac prayed to the LORD for his wife, because she was barren.  And the LORD granted his prayer, and Rebekah his wife conceived.”  –Genesis 25:21

This year, my church decided to work together to read the Bible in its entirety.  As I read through the Scriptures, I will share with you each nugget of hope that God gives me, particularly in relation to my trying to conceive journey. 

I find this passage inspiring, because it addresses the husband’s heart in relation to his wife’s struggle.  When she hurts, he hurts, and he brought those wounds before the Lord for his wife.  How special!  So, husbands, please feel free to pray for your wives.  Your prayers are mighty and effective, particularly in this infertility struggle.  Infertility effects the whole family.  When the woman struggles to conceive, the whole family misses out on the little one that she longs for, too.  We must band together and pray for each woman we know that’s ttc, especially in our sweet families.  

I have hope in the journey ahead, because I have a wonderful husband and family, just like Rebekah did…and I know the Healer of infertility, too.

 

P.S. I will be updating in other ways in the coming days and weeks, too.  I will be posting about my journey with PCOS, my weight loss goals and journey, and other ttc tidbits.  If you have any suggestions or ideas, please feel free to leave a comment and share.

The Genesis

I decided to start this blog to share what I’m going through in preparing for my trying to conceive journey.  We are not quite at the stage of trying yet, but will be in a few short months.  I will be researching and attempting to prepare my body for the beautiful journey of pregnancy and using this blog as my outlet.  I hope you grow to enjoy and look forward to my posts.

I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome at the tender age of 16.  Because of this, as soon as I got married nearly 4 years ago, I have been concerned that I will have fertility problems.  Each time, however, that I pray about having children and my concerns for fertility, this Scripture comes to mind:

“The LORD visited Sarah as he had said, and the LORD did to Sarah as he had promised…And Sarah said, ‘God has made laughter for me; everyone who hears will laugh over me.'” –Genesis 21:1; 6

I cling to the promises of the LORD.  Countless times, generation after generation, He has healed the wombs of the motherless and brought them the laughter and joy of motherhood.  I don’t know if I will have fertility problems, but the odds are high that I may.  I trust in His promises and that He will see me along in this journey.